Oct 29, 2010

Mixtape 4U

"Life is a song. Love is the music."
Music speaks when words can't.  
Take a lyric from any song that you think 
and describes me about you.
And so I made you a mixtape of my 
playlist when the time I having a relaxing moment 
to think, write and reading while listen to this. 
by Butch Walker

"Feel Like Tonight" 
by Chris Daughtry

"You Got Me"
by Colbie Caillat
"The Scientist"
by Coldplay

by Dashboard Confessional

"Somebody's Me"
by Enrique Iglesias

by Erin McCarley

"Sleeping To Dreams"
by Jason Mraz

"Read My Mind"
by The Killers

"Taking Chances"
by Vedera

I loves listening to songs that make me smile... 
not just because of the words or music, because of it make 
me remind of someone and the moment that I could be.

When I have my headphones in and my music is 
playing, it's like I'm in a whole different world and that's 
the only way I can ESCAPE from the REALITY

Music doesn't always have to have words to 
touch the heart. Sometimes just a melody can take 
me to a places that I can only dream of.


Oct 26, 2010


"I chose to love you in silence, for in silence 
I find no rejection. I chose to love you in your loneliness, 
for in your loneliness no one owns you, but me."

Oct 22, 2010

Live, Life & Love Chapter #7

Sometimes I wonder if I do the right thing,
thing that could change everything for possible,
thing could make me knowing what is right,
but I always knew it's wrong.  

The truth that hurts is the same 
truth that heals, life is much more beautiful 
without expectations. And sometimes everything 
needs to fall apart before it can really 
fit together right.

A moments can bring me together, 
 some moments tear me apart, some moments 
can change me forever. I guess it would be nice 
having a memories start with a smile, 
and end with ''remember when''...
Giving up is not an option, 
I'll keep fighting for what I want or I'll lose 
what I need, I am what I'm choose to be, it's my 
choices in life that ultimately decide who I am 
and who I'll become.

Day by day nothing is changing,
but when I look back everything is different,
anything worth having is definitely worth waiting for. 
I don't be someone else' back-up plan, understudy or 
afterthought. I deserve more than that.

And sometimes, 
I really just don't know what to say. 
Because, what I really want to say, 
 is something that I just 
cannot say.

Oct 20, 2010

Prettiest Friend

Yes, It hurt so much.
Some people don't have the strength to get thru,
and for some others they just live with it than
learn from the silence and understand.

I never lost my words to say what's 
important to you, I tried putting my mind and 
my heart on a scale but somehow it just 
doesn't seem to balance.
It's hard to choose someone you could love. 
But the hardest part is to admit that you have fallen 
and love with someone you didn't mean to fall and 
love with, from the very start..
But I'm glad I did.

Letting go of someone is not about letting 
go of the feelings but instead keeping the love,
and accepting that its not just enough. When I tell you 
I like you, I don't say it out of habit or to start a 
conversation, I say it to remind you that you're 
the best thing that ever happened to me.
Don't give up on me yet because you can't have me, 
hate me because you had me and if you let me get away 
and I refuse to give you another chance.
The difference about me and you 
is you care and I don't. And I'm sorry that hurts you, 
I don't mean too. Its matter of time for some big changes,
I know can't live life the way I have been anymore. 
I'm on my way to you and end it perfectly...
Just hang on, 
for the important moment,
to Perfectly ♥ you.

Oct 19, 2010

Every choice I make.

There are 3 types of days in our life...

#1 "Good Days give you happiness."

If someone can make you laugh when you're about to cry, 
don't give up on them. They're the true meaning of happiness.
Sometimes the best things in life are unexpected surprises.

#2 "Bad Days give you experience."

Smart people learn from other people's mistakes, 
intelligent people learn from their own mistakes, 
stupid people never learn at all. =]
PERFECTION is the outcome of a million mistakes.

#3 "Worst Days give you a lesson."

You will never know which one is the right path, 
if you never had the wrong ones.

Oct 18, 2010


Far away in beyond our imagination,
We GIVE something that could mean something,
And sometimes we TAKE something.

At the point we all forget sometimes,
In order to make it sense and we all need it anyway,
Need to believe that we all sometimes wish.

Wish everything could be fine,
Think every single things will be just fine,
But, we always forgot to ACCEPT it.

Oct 17, 2010

The Shore - Hold On

I've been living all these years,
Just to grow another fear,
And to feel the other side of you leaving,
We can't know where we belong,
Aging rivers move along and the breath of our hearts
Is dying...

Lord I'm needing you so much,

I'm so afraid of losing touch,
Don't you feel it when I say...?

Baby, please hold on to it,

Baby, please hold on to it, oh, oh, oh.

Burning through another day,

Watching the tide roll away,
And the ocean of our lives is fading,
And I'm trying to feel the light,
Pass through darkness in the night,
We're both changing, can't you see?

That I'm needing you so much,

We've come so far to lose our touch,
Better believe me, when I say,

Baby, please hold on to it,

Oh, baby please hold on to it, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh.

Lord I'm needing you so much,

I'm so afraid of losing touch,
Don't you feel it when I say...?

Baby, please hold on to it,

Baby, please hold on to it, oh, oh, oh.

Oh, how will I know?

Oh, how will I know?
Oh, how will I know?

Oct 15, 2010


Well some of us sometimes get lucky and 
some of them might not, for my life so it get worst 
and more worst that I couldn't understand why but it 
happen for a reason.

And for that reason I believe, I just need to have some
faith, courage and a wisdom for my life. Life it's great when
you know what is about life and everyday I learn more.

Faith is about trust, the only one who make us live in
this planet. When you put a lot of faith but only just faith it
only get something in between but then you have to 
understand behind all the reason happen.

And pray for it, 
that might eventually turns thing better
or not...

Being judgmental is mediocre.  
It takes far more courage to improve your own life 
than to judge someone Else's. The only thing greater than the 
power of the mind is the courage of the heart. Whoever 
said walking away takes more courage was wrong. It 
takes more courage to stand and fight for what 
you want, admit a mistake and talk about it.

And I wonders why some people are so selfish 
that they don't care about the consequences or who they 
hurt in the process of doing what they are doing or plan to do. 
It doesn't matter what choice I make, as long as I can live 
with the consequences and I already live mine.

For now my life still go on and I don't know 
if I wanna give it up now or later, maybe never give
up hope ever so, because it always be for you 
when you need it. 

"Once you find the person you want to spend 
the rest of your life with, you can't wait for the rest of 
your life to begin"

Oct 14, 2010

Leaves Of Grass

Whoever you're holding me now in hand,
Without one thing all be useless,
I give you fair warning before you attempt me further,
I am not what you supposed, but far different.
Who is what that would become my follower?
Who would sign himself a candidate for my destructive?
The way is suspicious, the result uncertain, perhaps destructive,
You would have to give up all else, I alone would expect
to be your sole and exclusive standard,
Your novitiate would even then be long and exhausting,
The whole past theory of your life and all conformity to the lives
around you would have to be abandon'd,
Therefore release me now before troubling yourself any further,
let go your hand from my shoulders,
Put me down and depart on your way.

"by Walt Whitman"

Oct 13, 2010

Just Once...

Once in my life, thinking of what my best said...
"Why can I let the one who love you thru to feels 
what's your deep inside for once...?"

Maybe I'm afraid of losing her or maybe I'm scare of myself,
I don't know... maybe I just don't care as long I love her, and that's
all I need to know but I guess that also is very important for her
to knew it too.  

Some people are meant to fall in ♥ with each other, 
but sometimes not meant to be together. But I believe that what
is meant to be will meant to be and I always find a way.

If I knew I'm gonna loss someone that's mean so much in 
my life, I'll avoid it! ...eventually is not my decision to make 
and it's up to faith, because I believe in God.

Love your life to the fullest, do all the thing you 
wanna do, dream as they may come true, but remember 
always keep faith in love what you think and do.

It is not how much love I've in the beginning, but how 
much love I build until the end.

Probably I've my own reason not to let 
anyone get thru deep inside my heart, not because 
she don't deserve it and maybe she think I'm "GAY"
...absolutely not... 

...or maybe it got to do something with
my past and with all love before this...

Just I don't know the truth about myself yet,
and I can't take another risk to loss it again someone 
that's really meant so much in my life.

Oct 12, 2010

What do you do?

What do you do when you fall in love with someone,
and that person is your world but if you tell them how you 
feel you'll lose them forever???

Never leave a true relation for few faults, think just ones...
Nobody is prefect, nobody is correct and in the end, AFFECTION is 
always greater than the PERFECTION...

Most of the problems in life comes because of 2 reasons. 
#1 we act without thinking...
#2 we keep thinking without acting.

Whatever battle we have raging inside us, 
we always have a choice - to be the best of ourselves,
it's the choices that make us who we are...
I'm never upset when I see an ex with someone else. 
Because ever since I was little, my parents 
taught me to give my old toys to the less fortunate.

One step back doesn't mean you're defeated, 
it only means you're going to take the same step forward 
again, but this time. I'll be more WISER...