Dec 22, 2010


Felling joy, sad, love and all emotion or maybe saying
a words can be seen how you looks, express yourself by the way
your reaction from the outside and without feeling.. it never
works at all.

You're a heartless person you can ever be.. and it can 
may leads you to a self destruction, for all the cost you be
feel the fear on your own to feels what is really matters
and that's all it counts.

But when you start within inside your heart and 
you do really understand what is feeling.. is that you accepts 
the pain. From that moment is how you deal with it,
and fight to survive.

Dec 17, 2010

George Bernard Shaw

Progress is impossible without change, 
and those who cannot change their minds 
cannot change anything...

Dec 15, 2010


"You can always tell the difference between
a good guy and a bad one, the bad one tells you, his "different", 
than the good one, doesn't have too."

Dec 13, 2010

The Truth. Chapter #2

Mark my words...

Live, Life and Love takes courage, 
it has the power to destroy us, 
our hopes, 
our dreams,
our sanity, 
our belief in ourselves, 
but it can also gift us with unimaginable joy.

If someone doesn't fill you up as you do them, 
chances are they never will. 
Life is not selfish, 
or hateful. 
It makes you feel better, 
not worse.

If you don't want to see my dark side, 
 DON'T make a promise you can't stick with,
DON'T say what you don't mean and 
DON'T get close to me if you can't handle it.

I do care for you,
and I'm willing to fight for you.
but if someone cares for you better than I do,
I'd give up the fight because just seeing you happy,
I know I've already won...

Keeps your expectations extremely low, 
that way it's almost impossible to be disappointed.

I know,
We all made a whole bunch of mistakes, 
but please don't make me feel like...
falling in love with you was one of them.

I am not afraid of trying again...
I am only afraid of getting hurt for the same reason again.

Dec 10, 2010


I think if the worst regret we can have in life is
 not for the wrong things we did, but for the thousands of right 
things we did for the wrong one. Actually its not what you do...its
how you do it! Its not what you see...its how you look at it...
Its not how your life is...its how you live it!

Sometimes people are make them something.
And when they become something...they feel you are nothing, that's
sad but kinda give me sense a humor thinking it. One day I'll realize 
that...what I did wrong and I'll realize what I lost and 
by then I wont care anymore.

Sometimes it's better to let go of some people from 
your life, to help them understand your value and importance 
in the future, standing for what you believe in regardless of the 
odds against you, and the pressure that tears at your resistance 
is courage. Don't always say what you know, but always 
know what you are saying...


Dec 8, 2010

I've know clue.

Every time I try to get thing out of my mind
about something and try to write it down, it wont come out
the way it was supposed to be, I've know clue why??!.

What I want I don't get. What I get I'm not satisfied,
what I expect never happens. What I hate keeps repeating.
Well.. I guess that's life supposed to be for me.

...Just because it's not what I were expecting,
doesn't mean it's not everything I've been waiting for...
maybe I serenity comes when I stop expecting and 
start accepting.

Dec 6, 2010

A Qoutes

"If you hold back your feelings because 
you are afraid of getting hurt, you end up 
hurting anyway..."

Dec 2, 2010

Never assume. Don't expect. Just hope.

If everyone says you deserve better, listen up..  
it is most likely to be true. One of the hardest things in life to 
do is to wait for the one you love to return back to you. I've learned 
the best way to prevent your heart from getting broken, is to act 
like you don't have one. Chances are given to a person who is 
willing to change regardless of the consequence.

I'll find someone new, we won't be alone, and
 I won't be with you. You're waiting for me, to crawl back to 
your side, But no..not this time, I'm keeping my pride. Nobody 
is stupid. It's just that sometimes, we choose to be stupid for
us to feel a little bit of what they call happiness.

Nov 26, 2010

The Truth. Chapter #1

I'm not kinda guy who just wanna get something on
what's in your pants anymore. Yes.. if you look back on 10 year 
ago I was one of that guy and turns out when I "think" I discover 
a true love but the fact, is not.. I've punish for the mistake
that I made, I've no regret what I do.  

I feels how to be betray, heart broken, sad and be
lonely for the regret that I've done that I even couldn't feel
those pain and that makes me what I am now. After the self sense
of myself turn in the right path I found someone who once
give a hope to change and is not bad at all. 

She made me something that I couldn't discover 
myself for what I capable, and she will be the amazing thing 
happen into my life. Wish I could see each and everyone and every 
girl that I've dating with and say "I'm sorry and I didn't meant to
play with your heart or take advantage"...

"And that's already label me what a fucking jerk
I am"...

Now it all left behind me that I couldn't go back in
some what ever ways. I must moving forward and understand
the mistake past couple of years my living and so I could be better
person even more to believe every thing happen for the reason
that I didn't wanna know at all.

to be continue...

Nov 20, 2010

A Guy Saving A Girl.

#1: I'm gonna break you heart softly, gently and painfully...

(Every girl wants a guy that isn't afraid to let everyone know that he's 
fallen for her, is not that I don't like or love you, the fact is I do.)

#2: I'm gonna make you hate me so f**king bad for what I really am, none 
a material guy, or so what ever you call and I'm heartless person... 

(In life there are two certainties: You'll never get everything you want, and 
you'll never want everything you get, none of this that I want too but you 
deserve more and better than me.)

#3: Last and but not least, I'm sorry for the thing I've done...

(I did mean to fall for you, because it's the best thing happen to me 
this year, you perfect for me and now is my turn to save you.)

Nov 19, 2010

He Feels.

"My feelings? Oh don't worry about those, no one else does..."

He always trying to please and make everyone happy, 
the only problem is, he the only one feeling unhappy. It's much easier 
to fake a smile than to explain what you really feel inside.. He know in 
her heart, she didn't deserve what he did to her.

But it's his life, his choice, his loss...

The worst feeling is trying to be happy knowing that you still 
feel dead inside and some people just don't understand how much they 
hurt other people, and they don't know how the other person is 
feeling. Trust less.. It hurts less.

He says ...
"It's easy to love somebody when everything is 
wonderful. The proof of someone's love is that they still 
love you when everything is awful."

Live, life and love is unconditional commitment to an 
imperfect person. To love somebody isn't just a strong feeling, 
it is a decision, a judgment, and a promise. Live in passion.. 
Life with a style.. Love till you death..

Nov 15, 2010

Are You Okay?!

I've been long, a long way from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitoes,
And drank 'til I was thirsty again

We went searching through thrift store jungles
Found Geronimo rifle, Marilyn's shampoo
And Benny Good man's corset and fan
Well, o.k. I made this up… 
I promised you I'd never give up

If it makes you happy it can't be that ba-aa-aa-ad
If it makes you happy then why the hell are you so sad?

You get down, real low down
You listen to Coltrane, derail your own train
Well who hasn't been there before?

I come round, around the hard way
Bring you comics in bed; scrape the mold off the bread,
And serve you French toast again
Well, o.k. I still get stoned… 
I'm not the kind of girl you'd take home

We've been far, far away from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitoes,
And everywhere in between
Well, o.k. we get along… 
so what if right now everything's wrong?

Nov 14, 2010

Live, Life & Love Chapter #8

A very true but strange. Love doesn't start in morning & doesn't 
end in evening. It starts when you don't need it & ends when you need 
it most. People may forget what you do, but people will never forget 
how you make them feel. Sometimes I wish that everything would 
turn out the way I dreamed about...

Nov 13, 2010

As Lovers Go


One day you'll ask me, "which is more important to you me or your life?", 
I'll say "my life", and you'll go and leave me... without knowing that you are my life. 
Sometimes I just want to see my future to make sure your in it, and I can says,
distance means so little when someone means so much.

Nov 10, 2010

Attraction = Attraction

" Attraction is the temporary love 
" but " 
Love is the permanent attraction "

Once in a great while, 
It all comes together. 
It all falls into place, It all works. 
If u have the patience to wait,
The one then love will find you.

When you really matter to someone, 
That person will always make time for you. 
No excuses, no lies, and no broken promises. 

I wish I woke up everyday smiling,
As I remember I have you in my life, 
 I hope many years from now I would still,
Wake up smiling for the same reason.

And I wish that you were here,
Or that I were there, 
or that we were together anywhere.
If someone truly wants you, 
Nothing will keep them away. 
They will do everything they can,
to be with you.

Nov 3, 2010

I can't fight it...

Help me...
To Accept the Things that I cannot Change
Grant me a Strength to Acknowledge my failures,
Give me the Wisdom I desperately am in Need of,
And the Will to let go...

Nov 1, 2010

"The Winner Stands Alone"

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then look the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Thought as far that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equal lay
In leave no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yes knowing if I should ever come back,

I shall be telling this a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I…
I took the one lee traveled by,
And that has made all the different.

by Paulo Coelho

Oct 29, 2010

Mixtape 4U

"Life is a song. Love is the music."
Music speaks when words can't.  
Take a lyric from any song that you think 
and describes me about you.
And so I made you a mixtape of my 
playlist when the time I having a relaxing moment 
to think, write and reading while listen to this. 
by Butch Walker

"Feel Like Tonight" 
by Chris Daughtry

"You Got Me"
by Colbie Caillat
"The Scientist"
by Coldplay

by Dashboard Confessional

"Somebody's Me"
by Enrique Iglesias

by Erin McCarley

"Sleeping To Dreams"
by Jason Mraz

"Read My Mind"
by The Killers

"Taking Chances"
by Vedera

I loves listening to songs that make me smile... 
not just because of the words or music, because of it make 
me remind of someone and the moment that I could be.

When I have my headphones in and my music is 
playing, it's like I'm in a whole different world and that's 
the only way I can ESCAPE from the REALITY

Music doesn't always have to have words to 
touch the heart. Sometimes just a melody can take 
me to a places that I can only dream of.


Oct 26, 2010


"I chose to love you in silence, for in silence 
I find no rejection. I chose to love you in your loneliness, 
for in your loneliness no one owns you, but me."

Oct 22, 2010

Live, Life & Love Chapter #7

Sometimes I wonder if I do the right thing,
thing that could change everything for possible,
thing could make me knowing what is right,
but I always knew it's wrong.  

The truth that hurts is the same 
truth that heals, life is much more beautiful 
without expectations. And sometimes everything 
needs to fall apart before it can really 
fit together right.

A moments can bring me together, 
 some moments tear me apart, some moments 
can change me forever. I guess it would be nice 
having a memories start with a smile, 
and end with ''remember when''...
Giving up is not an option, 
I'll keep fighting for what I want or I'll lose 
what I need, I am what I'm choose to be, it's my 
choices in life that ultimately decide who I am 
and who I'll become.

Day by day nothing is changing,
but when I look back everything is different,
anything worth having is definitely worth waiting for. 
I don't be someone else' back-up plan, understudy or 
afterthought. I deserve more than that.

And sometimes, 
I really just don't know what to say. 
Because, what I really want to say, 
 is something that I just 
cannot say.

Oct 20, 2010

Prettiest Friend

Yes, It hurt so much.
Some people don't have the strength to get thru,
and for some others they just live with it than
learn from the silence and understand.

I never lost my words to say what's 
important to you, I tried putting my mind and 
my heart on a scale but somehow it just 
doesn't seem to balance.
It's hard to choose someone you could love. 
But the hardest part is to admit that you have fallen 
and love with someone you didn't mean to fall and 
love with, from the very start..
But I'm glad I did.

Letting go of someone is not about letting 
go of the feelings but instead keeping the love,
and accepting that its not just enough. When I tell you 
I like you, I don't say it out of habit or to start a 
conversation, I say it to remind you that you're 
the best thing that ever happened to me.
Don't give up on me yet because you can't have me, 
hate me because you had me and if you let me get away 
and I refuse to give you another chance.
The difference about me and you 
is you care and I don't. And I'm sorry that hurts you, 
I don't mean too. Its matter of time for some big changes,
I know can't live life the way I have been anymore. 
I'm on my way to you and end it perfectly...
Just hang on, 
for the important moment,
to Perfectly ♥ you.